I Cringe At The Word

🆃🆁🅸🅶🅶🅴🆁🆂 *shutter* I hate the word. It almost creates it’s own definition within my reaction to it. But, they do exist.

If you’ve been through any type of traumatic situation, the healing process can be flippin’ HARD.

For real. I’ve been there and honestly, I’m still doing this whole healing thing for myself in a lot of ways.

You know how it goes: Normal day, everything is fine and then suddenly…something happens. It could be the smallest thing, but you’re taken back. And then here you are curled up in the fetal again. 🆃🆁🅸🅶🅶🅴🆁🆂.

Okay, so it doesn’t 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 happen that way, but inside, you’ve felt that, right? I’m here to tell you that it’s normal and you’re not alone. That’s so incredibly important to know when it’s happening because these moments of overwhelming emotion can make you feel like you’re crazy.

But, you’re so not. You’ve been through something. Something that’s had lasting affects on you. It can be hard to come to terms with it, but once you find that courage and acceptance, things can start to change for the better and you can become even stronger than before!

In the heat of my darkest time, I was still in an abusive relationship and dealing with someone who had such back and forth behavior that it had broken me down. I felt so elated in the good times and so incredibly awful in the bad times, that I was completely lost of a “normal” reaction to anything thrown my way. If it was yet another bad day, I would give up on the day completely and shelter myself alone in my bedroom, lights out, phone off, crying in the dark.

Thinking of those moments can be a trigger in itself and while I’m years into my healing, I can still notice little things that will send my brain into a tizzy. The beauty of the steps I’ve taken in the adventure to my happiest really shine through as these moments pop up. There are no more dark room, late night cry fests; I don’t purposely seclude myself from others; I don’t feel awful about myself.

See that right there, I don’t feel awful about myself. In fact, I feel really positive about who I am as a person and what I bring to the table. I had lost that piece of me for a while. But, with my healing it’s back and it’s bigger, better and stronger than ever.

This is why I’m here, typing this, sharing my story, passing on the knowledge that I’ve learned in professional education but more importantly, in life. There are plenty of people that will be an ear and want to dish out their two cents, but if they’ve never lived something they thought they’d never get back from, they can’t fully relate. Me? I 💯 G E T I T!

If you’re struggling trying to “handle” it on your own, if you need someone to talk to that’s an outside ear, if you just need some guidance and techniques to help – please send me an email today so together, we can help you start your adventure to the happiest year yet!

TOGETHER… We Got This ☀️💙

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